I have been slacking hardcore on this site! I started going to behavioral therapy 3 weeks ago… and today I brought up the fact that I had started this blog…. my therapist thought it was a wonderful idea and encouraged me to get back into it… even use it as a distraction from pulling. So when I get the urge to pull… write about it instead!
I usually don’t do well with therapists of any sort… I’ve been to a variety… but Dr. Kim Caroll who I am currently seeing is AWESOME! I feel like she actually GETS me… doesn’t just judge me and treat me like I know nothing about the disorder….uggh i cant STAND that!!! But anyway she suggested to keep up with my trich blogging… so I’m back!
Will be posting updates soon!
August 19th, 2010 at 2:22 am
ok, I am going out on a limb here. I decided tonight that I would look on the internet to see if there were blogs for people sharing about their issues with Trich. I see there are. I started pulling my hair in the fifth grade. I am 57. It is worse than it has ever been in my life; the problem. I do not really want to admit my problem…I just want to keep it hidden….but it isn’t really hidden because from time to time, I have gapping holes in my eyebrows, eyelashes and head. Oh boy, this is the first time in my life that I have shared with anyone about this and it hurts real bad. I am more ashamed than I can believe. Who am I talking to and why am I doing this online? Is it because I don’t really have to meet anyone in person that it makes it easier to talk about. I would love it to end, but I am afraid it is not so simple. Am I relating to someone in particular or a group? ok, I’m ready to talk and share and I just want to say that I feel great pain for anyone going through this. Who wants to admit to such a thing. This stigma is the thoughest thing I think. That’s my story and I give abundant love to all who are going through this too. Good night from your friend with a pain in her heart, wishing this would go away.
August 20th, 2010 at 2:22 am
CONGRATS on having the courage to post Debi! Wonderful to meet you! I understand your feeling of shame as I share it myself… as I’m sure most of us who suffer from trich do. It’s not fair… and its hard. Hard to talk about hard to admit to hard to recover from hard to accept on an everyday basis when we look in the mirror…. and that’s exactly the reason I started this blog. You aren’t alone.
Like you… I am much more comfortable talking about it online. Only a handful of people in my daily life know about my trich… though others may be suspicious upon noticing my balding and thinning spots from time to time. I think its easier because this way we’re talking to others dealing with the same thing…. rather than “normal” people who might just assume we’re completely crazy. Trich is very misunderstood. People wonder why we can’t “just stop”…. its embarassing, in my opinion, to discuss.
So yah, don’t discount sharing online. Its a step in the right direction!